# Answers



## tomxroberts (Dec 3, 2012)

Im so confused i don't even know what to think anymore. i have wrote in as much detail as possible what I've experienced over the past 2 years and i hope someone who has experienced something similar to me can help me by giving me some advice. thank you.

Im writing this in the early hours of the morning, i have just 20 minutes ago purely by accident come across Depersonalization Disorder. For the past 2 years I've suffered from what i thought was maybe a strong form of anxiety i could not explain. I don't even remember the way i felt before this started happening it was all so sudden. i grew up into a very good and loving family i had a almost perfect childhood living with both of my parents in the suburbs of the south of England. i had experienced no real trauma in my life before this all started. where i believe it started was when i took a hit of 80x salvia, i experienced vivid visual hallucinations this was the first time i had ever taken a phsycadelic substance but not the first time i had taken any drug whatsoever. it was enjoyable at this point in time, about ten minutes into the trip i began to think about my life. the thoughts i was having were strange. it was almost like i had never thought about my existence. i felt like i was scripted and that who was to say every other person in the world wasn't real if i could not feel what they were feeling. my whole life almost flashed before my eyes at that point and i had a horrific panic attack. when i started to sober up i felt like i was new again. i can imagine the feeling being similar to surviving a war or great tragedy. i felt completely normal again when sober. but what i had experience when under the influence of salvia couldn't help but sit in the back of my mind.

I was 17 At this point in time. i was smoking a lot of cannabis, i was smoking pretty much everyday. a few days after this salvia trip happened i began to feel strange when i was stoned. i would get higher alot quicker than usual and feel anxious. the idea of reality i had begun to question on my salvia experience was creeping into my thoughts more frequently but i shrugged it off as nothing and carried on smoking as normal. about a week after this started to happen i remember smoking up with one of my best friends. after one bowl i started to feel peculiar. i remember the thought of my life creeping into my mind at this point and almost instantly i started to panic. i could barely see my heart was beating so fast i was in pain. the thought of my existence. i think of this as the point where i have never been the same again. the feeling would come like de ja vu but constantly getting worse and better throughout the day. i dropped out of school ( my a levels ) 1 month later. i was living at my parents house too frightened to leave. this was truly the darkest thing i have ever experienced in my life. this cold numb feeling of being away from myself while i contemplated what in the world could of caused this. the thoughts i experienced are something i wish to never remember or experience again. it calmed down slightly after about 4 months or so. i went to some counciling sessions for drugs. and also to my doctor but they didnt seem to understand when i explained what the feeling i was experienced was. i suspect this was due to the fact i was mentioning cannabis without the phrase "hearing voices" so there was little time for me. i started to search for the answers myself but i never found anything and after a few months i just gave up.

Since then i admit i have improved alot. i am now at university, i have a girlfreind of nine months and i have some ambition in my life. the de ja vu style feeling i mentioned is almost completely gone. but the constant numb is still here even though its improoved an amazing amount.

If anyone took the time to read this i am so grateful.

Tom


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## AussiePheonix (Dec 5, 2012)

I had a similar panic attack after weed/pull a year ago. This resulted in a high level of anxiety from then onwards, till having 2 pills in Barcelona. From that point onwards I have had derealisation 24/7.


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